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A Thing
You a river.Me, giving a dam. You flow.Me, stay. How heartbreaking. To love youIs to get out of your way.
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nice
with creative work, ‘nice’ is not enough. nice is easy. nice is safe. nice is ‘hmm, but better’. nice doesn’t cut clutter. nice doesn’t make you lean in. nice doesn’t pop. nice is when art dies and content takes over. but nice does the job. so, it’s easy to ship nice. i’ve said ok to…
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Founder Learnings – 1
1. If you’re not selling, you’re not serious 2. If you’re not gaining market share *or* creating a new market, you’re not serious 3. Your team rallies behind your actions, not your words
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History
History will remember TTT as many things – everyone with their own narrative. But let this echo in the annals of time that TTT and I wouldn’t be here, had Sharanya Rajgopal not walked into my life in 2012. Her faith, her love, her music, her words, her connections, her persistence and her skill and…
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Things To Learn From Aria
Dance and music are core to childhood As is curiosity, movement and exploration Create and destroy and create are all natural Applauding oneself is the best gift we’ve forgotten Playing with self > Playing with others Clear articulation of what I want. Babies know their shit.
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Sharanya
Sharanya knows her rhythm. She can sense when a beat is off – in a song, in a story, in a person. Maybe it comes from her years with music. Sharanya knows her time. She can see a memory in a moment. It’s why she chases the making of it so furiously. If you can’t…
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6 Months – Sugar Out
After 30 good days of no processed sugar, I’ve had 10 odd days of going back to it. The good news – it’s just not the same anymore. It’s like going back to a toxic ex. There’s a longing. But the reality doesn’t live up to the desire anymore. So this time around, I’m pushing…
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Day 30
30 days since I dropped processed sugar. A month ago, I didn’t think I had the will power to pursue it. But here we are. Well done to me! I’ve been to a fancy wedding in Jodhpur, a fun trip to Rishikesh and many dinners and social settings in which I’ve said NO to some…
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Day 17-20
Saw Sumedhas’ insane sugar stash from London. It had so many of my favourites. It took a special force of will to say no to it. One easy way to get put off from sugar is to read the ingredient list. Just can’t cannot no way do it anymore. Another superpower is water. It’s such…
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Day 13 – 16
It’s a familiar world now. Fasting and detox feel like ways to rest your mind via the stomach. The cravings don’t have the same urgency. I enjoyed the benefits in Rishikesh. I had more stamina, I could wear Aria for longer. I was calmer, in general. I still need to improve my agility, build a…
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Rishikesh – Day 10, 11 and 12
Had some virgin mojito which had sprite and some sugar syrup to accompany my lunch. Baby carrying got a bit intense. But I was proud of not succumbing to tons and tons of delicious options at bakeries. Especially the fucking cheesecakes. Life without sugar has certainly lowered mucus production. And I also feel slightly less…
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Day 8 & 9
It’s travel week. We’re in Rishikesh. Flight day (28 Nov) was great. Had lunch at home and satvik dinner at the hotel. I could do a lot with limited food. In fact, it was a reminder we’re surrounded by way too much food. Yesterday was an over-food day. With breakfast, lunch and two dinners. Also…
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Day 7
We’re still on course. I realised gluten, dairy and sugar are everywhere. It’s going to take a big push against the norm to be regular with it. But we get there when we get there. For now, it’s another day of saying bye-bye to sugar. Oh, by the way – I did go to the…
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Day 6
Sugar would be nice right now. In another time, I’d be having vietnamese iced coffee icecream from MeeMee’s right now. But instead, I’m having water. A part of me feels great though. The craving is becoming more cerebral and less urgent. It feels like I have more input to my mind on this. I can…
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What’s eating me up?
There’s a gnaw. A tension that doesn’t let me be easy. Why have I suddenly become so stuck up? It’s the work. Growing at a certain pace. Unlocking X amount of revenue every month. It’s the founder stress that has stayed in the background but is now louder. It’s so hard to articulate it. I…
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Day 5
Eating early and drinking water helps stave off sugar. The rest of my life is still gluten and carbs. I’m just shocked at the absence of workouts and protein in my life. I had one bite of a chocolate cake made in olive oil and almonds. I still need to visualise more a life and…
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Day 4
I miss sugar as a pick-me-up. It’s not as acute in the mornings but as the day progresses, I miss the easy sugar energy. What’s the replacement? Protein and water. Damn! I need to sort my protein source and start preparing for it better. Will start with a light workout and a shake tomorrow. These…
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Day 3
Water is a great substitute for sugar. Was really craving an ice cream before bed but had nice big glugs of warm water instead. No other big noticeable change yet. Will start gentle weights and protein with water tomorrow onwards. Feel like taking away one habit, must be replaced by a healthy dopamine inducing one.
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Scribbles – 2
Sad as it is, marriages are saved by children. Especially in the early days of caregiving. What angers you today? Once you consume less, once you start walking lightly on the earth – do you find room to ask the harder questions? Do we need so much? How to live in the mountains? On a…
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Day 2
Started with loosies and broken sleep. Sleep is the big one. It just puts my nervous system out of whack. Wanting me to eat even when the body doesn’t need it. But that’s the hard and challenging bit. Sugar makes this same battle 10x harder. That’s why we’re on this challenge. Ends okay. I craved…
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Day 1
Teeth crave it. There’s a tingle and a desire. The brain goes to sleep without sugar. So this is going to be hard early on. Got home from Goa to delicious Diwali hampers full of sweet somethings. So hard to say no and move on. All the dopamine receptors are like I want. Post dinner’s…
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21 Day Challenge #1
I’ve risen and fallen many times doing these challenges. For every 9 I fail at, there’s 1 I sustain for longer and it becomes part of my life. I will always choose failed attempts at growth over surrender. So here’s another. My choice of food and movement has a disproportionate impact on my life, and…
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The Price Of Falling In Love
It’s heady, all consuming and hard. Raising Aria has the potential to isolate me from the people I care most deeply about. Part operations, part life stage and part the rush of having my own outside of me. I’ve been so in-my-own-head that this opportunity to find joy outside of me feels god-sent. There’s a…
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New Rules Of Writing
1. Risk reputation to say something you deeply care about. 2. Write to find. Everything is not in your mind. 3. Be a receiver of truth. Listen to yourself and others. 4. Stare at ceilings. Watch your stories unfold. 5. You’re paid for how you say it. Craft is everything.
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Time Please
When Aria goes to Thathi’s home, Sharanya and I are left open, exhausted and crab-like. We have 6 hours to think about dreams, patch old wounds, make new plans, sleep and recover, find ourselves. It’s unfair and too much and we get little done, really. But we try. And this, this tiny thread, is a…
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Intense
This phase of life feels very hard. It’s for the first time in the last nine months where Sharanya and I have departed in our parenting. While she’s always trusted me with the reading and knowledge, (red light at night lowers cortisol levels), and me with her intuitive and playful connection – it’s only now…
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On Tulsi
Tulsi raised one baby and two adults. She made us parents. She’s always on. She’s been on for 9 months now. She is the grandparent who stayed with us. Tulsi is playful, meticulous, chatty, homebody, a small girl. Tulsi is particularly gassy. Her dancing is god awful. She makes the biggest sacrifice in the world,…
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Scribbles
What’s the driving force for a marriage? I wish partners called each other lovers. Only to remind themselves of what got lost. — The more you play, the more you learn. Staying in the arena is everything. — Be so good they come to you. — Steal every minute in the universe for your dream.…